so different now / Linda (number one little girl )Read >>
so different now / Linda (number one little girl )
Dad it has nearly been 20yrs since you let me marry Gordon and I am so glad you did we have had many wonderful years together and many wonderful times with you and our children.
Even tho so many things have changed now that you are not with us here any longer we know that you are still in our hearts all the time our path may have changed as the same path could never be walked again it was way to long for us to continue on our own we do try and make the best of each day as you would like us to do bu it is still hard to do.
The kids are growing up so fast David looks at a picture of you on the wall with James when he was also about three and says it is no not James me and poppy if only it was true. You two are so simular in looks the way you both act the silly little sayings and things you do it is like you are here with us again. He has your beautiful curls just like you did as a little boy.
Dad you and David would of been up to so much trouble together Seanna would of just wanted to sit on your lap for cuddles and kisses she loves doing this. She has your determination and nothing will get in her way. James is growing up into a loving teenager so caring and thoughful and always thinking of others. You would be so proud of him the distance that he has come in life and especially in his schooling he would make you proud. Sarah has got your love for writting there is so much paper left everywhere all the time little notes here and there just like you use to I think she will write a book one day just like you did. She loves studyng and learning things also she will go far in this world and tackle it just like you do and pitty help who ever gets in her way.
Dad I still can't believe it is true that you aren't here physically any longer I so wish for those cuddles again I dream of them each night as I go to sleep I lie in bed some nights and await your car pulling up out the front and the kids racing down the hall way screaming poppy's here. I miss hearing that.
I can be out shopping and see somthing that I know that would really suit you and I have a large box with all those things in and a little marker on them so later in life the kids will be able to open the box and see what all the wonderful things are and why they were brought for you even tho you could not receive them.
You will never leave me and I am so looking forward to the day that I can run into your arms again for that much long waited needed cuddle.
Daddy thank you so much for coming into my dreams tonight it means so much and i have been looking forward to this for so long. You are so correct for giving me the links of chain as I know that no one can ever break our bond for each other and that we will always be forever close no matter how far we are away from each other. The ball and chains made me laugh is this to make me slow down in life? or so that I can never escape you? I will never escape you daddy you are my life the person who makes me smile still.
The dream tonight and putting my arms around you for the very last time meant so much to me and has put a smile on my face once again and lifted a hugh weight off my shoulders I know that you respect me for my thoughts on life and no matter if you agree with me or not that you will love and be with me forever and that means so much. You respect peoples thoughts no matter what and that is what i love about you so much you know that each person is not the same but that does not matter to you.
I love you so much daddy please come into my dreams again soon.
Daddy I am sad / Linda
Daddy I am having a hard time at the moment coping with you not being here. I so much wish I had someone to share my thoughts hopes and day to day life with. I use to be able to do this with you and now I have no one. I miss you terribly my heart is so broken the tears do not stop flowing lately and i feel so sad all the time even tho there are so many things going on in my life at the moment that are good but none of it really matters to me anymore. Daddy why were you taken away so soon we only just really started to share our life together as adults not just daughter and dad and it was so good now it's gone. i so much wish i could be with you now i don't know where to go from here any longer life sucks when there is no one to share you thoughts happiness and sadness with i just wish there was. I don't want to be here any longer i want to be with you i have tried so hard to continue without you but it is not working and i am not coping daddy what do i do? :( Close
We are now into full planning mode to be able to see Rachel Sean and their Family again soon and are enjoying every minute of it - it is so exciting another thing to look forward to in a couple of years.
We have started on our travel book and also I am still writing my book on household management etc....
I was thinking of maybe calling it A mothers world My life and finances all in one or somthing along that line. Have to run this pass the publishers first to see if it has been used before and get some input into what has been written so far hope to be able to take the first full draft copy in before the end of the year.
I would love to try and have it finished before christmas but the printers don't think it is possible as time is running out that is life i suppose but when it is out i hope it will help many other families like ours to reach for their dreams and live a happy organised life on an everyday wage with everything organised and in it's place.
You taught me that you can live life with the basic's and that you don't need material items to be happy and to make sure that you are always organised no matter how small the matter is.
This book I dedicate to you dad it might seem a funny type of book to dedicate to you but you were the most organised person I knew and who enjoyed doing it also.
I love you daddy and will cherish the short time we had together always. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Daddy I need to say a hugh thank you to you first it was the best thing that could of happen to us you connecting us with Rachel's Family. Thanks daddy xxxxx
Leading up to our trip I was so excited so was everyone else we couldn't wait to meet our additional members of our family. we couldn't sleep for days. When we arrived we picked up our campervan and drove straight around to Rachel's they welcomed us with wide open arms and Rachel had made a lovely lunch spread of food for us.
We settled in well getting to know everyone and we really then knew how extra special these people are. We spent a whole week camped at their house and getting to know them. They helped us to decide our route and where to go in England as that was our last things that we hadn't planned. Sean knew a lot of places as he is a truck driver which help to decided on our route.
When we left to explore we went right around the coast of England and Scotland we went to york (my favourite place) enburgh scotland john o grouts wales and back down around the south coast.
Will give you more details soon.
Zoe had her baby while we were there and she was over due but mum and bub are well and Harley Rae is a beautiful little girls just like her mum so pretty.
We can't wait until they all come out and visit us here in christmas 2011.
Thank you so much for bringing them into our family we have something to look forward to again. xxxx
Alone/ Linda (Daughter)
I feel so alone without you around me, helping me through life. The world is such a different place for me now, the kids always are speaking of you and all the wonderful times they had and all the times that they wish that they could share with you now but can't it is so hard on them they don't understand really but we try and do our best and still fullfill their wishes. What I would give for a hug and to see your smiling face again i really miss this. I love you forever daddy and now I just live day by day as nothing will ever be the same again until i can be with you. Love you heaps. Linda xxxxxxxxxxx Close
Daddy I am having so many mixed emotions at the moment. It is only a few days until we go to England to meet Rachel and her family. We wouldn't of been heading to England if you were still with us and it feels so wrong sometimes that we are. You are the reason we are traveling overseas, you brought Rachel and her family into our lives for some reason and I think you knew how we could help each other and be able to share may happy times together just like we did with you, Rachel is so much like you, kind, caring, there for anyone with no questions asked, a phone or email away only. It will be such a hard trip away but we will make it such a happy time for us all just as you would want it to be, you wouldn't of connected us both together if it wasn't to be. We love you so much daddy it hurts. Lvoe you for ever and ever. Linda, Gordon and Kids xxxx
Daddy as our trip to England draws closer I am feeling a whole lot of emotions, we shouldn't be going on this trip but spending time having so much fun with you and our children and watching the little ones grow up. This trip was never in our planning, and shouldn't have to be made.
Dad you made Rachel and our family meet together for some reason and have made this trip possible for us for some reason, I think it is because you know that Rachel and her family were the ones to pull us through to where we are today and without them it would of been impossible.
It has been an amazing journey for us meeting someone who understands us fully and has been there for us all all the time and distance has never been a problem, they are always only a phonecall or email away.
I always said you were a man of many challenges and this I reckon has been a big challenge for you to find the right person for us and who are so simular in what we do and believe, our ages and the ages of our children. You would always find the best for someone and I know you have done it again as they are trully the best friends anyone can have, not many people would go out of their way like they have for us never knowing us before, they are welcoming total strangers from the other side of the world into their lives and their home, now that is love.
You were always a man on a mission and always looked out for others and here it is shown that you are still always their to help people no matter where you are.
This trip will be such a emotional time both for Rachel's family and ours as you know we were found through both of us loosing someone close to each other, I believe that the angles of you and caitlyn have brought us together for a reason of love and friendship.
Even though this trip will be so hard we will make sure that we have the best time of our lives and share many happy memories of you with them. We will venture all around the UK having many cups of coffee for you and taking in all the local sites, as I know you loved traveling and always told us to go out and exlplore the world and this we will do.
Hopping on that plane will be the hardest for me and I think it will help me to have some closure and a way to hopefully be able to move forward a bit.
Dad even though I wish I could give up this holiday to have you here again I know that is not possible, but I thank you so much that you have connected us to a wonderful family to share our healing process with and the rest of our lives.
We love you heaps daddy.
You still are flying but now with many Angels always watching over us where ever we go.
Stars shine so brightly and freely / Linda (Daughter full of love for you )Read >>
Stars shine so brightly and freely / Linda (Daughter full of love for you )
Not long now to I get to meet Rachel and I can't wait she means so much to me as you know, you were the one that brought us together. How else would I meet her without someone guiding me to her accross the other side of the world.
She has done so much for our family if it wasn't for her and her family we would not of got through to where we are today. It is still so hard not having you here with us each day, getting to see the children grow up with you and all the things you were looking forward to doing with them through out their growing years but we are trying so hard to continue what you would of done with them.
We love you so much daddy and so do the kids and Gordon, David now sees poppy's stars each night before going to bed and he now says night night poppy stars Seanna and the other kids like looking up to you also. the stars glow and sparkle each night so freely just like you.
The star is such a very special thing in our house and is treasured greatly just like you and all the wonderful memories you have left with us, you follow us everywhere and we only need to look up to feel the warmth from you when we are down and out.
Daddy it has been three years today 31st March since you were taken away from us, we think about you every day and your photos and memories adore our home and lives and you remain with us for eternity and that can't be taken away from us.
You taught us so much and our kids also and we owe everything that we do, have and think to you, you were a true gentleman.
You always said that you never wanted to grow old and dependable and you will always be young and admired by all for what you have done in this world.
We love you so much dad and want to say a hugh thank you to you.
Love Linda, Gordon, James, sarah, David & Seanna. xxxxxxxxxxx
Missing you / Linda (Dads little girl xxx )Read >>
Missing you / Linda (Dads little girl xxx )
Dad, each day just seems to get harder and harder, every day driving to work I see your picture and look out the window at so many things, the valleys, the sun, the sky and think of what you would probably be doing on this day. You loved each day with so much that had to be done you never stopped, you enjoyed each day to its fullest. I find that so hard to do now, as you are unable to share it with me and enjoy it also, it has all been taken away unnecessarly. I so wish I was there for you when you needed me but I always thought you were so strong and could cope with anything, now I look back and see you also wanted and needed a helping hand but you were always strong for me as you always were there no matter what problems you were facing. You were always a shoulder to cry on, a voice that would listen, a person that cared. That should of been returned by me and wasn't I wasn't there for you when you needed me most and I am so sorry for this and will never forgive my self. You are the most amazing person there is and would bend over back wards for anyone who needed it, I treasure all the times that we had together with you with Gordon, James and Sarah, they were the best times of my life. We were getting along really well as father and daughter and also as adults now I was older with my own wonderful family and that was taken away much to soon, I so wish we had been much closer and opener with each other many years earlier. But those last few years together where we really opened up to each other and discussed many wonderful things together and many not so wonderful things together were the best days of my life and I truly thank you for sharing all these thoughts and concerns with me. I have taken much of what you and I have talked about over those years and incorporated them into my own life now and it is helping me so much and also the many wonderful support people I have here in Australia and Overseas, my support here locally has been a god send they are always just a phone call or visit away and they all remind me so much of you, a great listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. The kids miss you so much but you are daily in our lives still in every thing we do and say you are never far away from any of us. David and Seanna know about you so much and David reminds me so much of you, he has much of you in him. Every night he looks up to you in the night sky and can point out to the stars and say poppy he knows much more than we think. Seanna looks at your pictures and smiles. James and Sarah love telling both Daivd and Seanna all about you they enjoy it and it helps them so much in their grief they are so determined that they will both know all the wonderful times they spent with you over those wonderful years they had, they play the games that you played with them and all the other things that they were able to do with you. You are the best dad in the world and will never be forgotten out of our daily lives. We love you heaps daddy.
Love Linda, Gordon, James, Sarah, David and Seanna xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Daddy, We are slowly moving on with our lives just as you would want, happiness and joyful times are being had within our family, it has taken a long time but the last few days are the best days for a long time. Things are looking up, we are working towards many happy years ahead just as you would want us to. You always told us to do what we wanted to do and don't worry about what other people say we should do and that is what we are doing and it feels so good and right, it is bringing some joy back into our lives. The kids are growing up so quickly David is starting to really talk and Seanna has taken her first steps and now has four teeth. David is so much like you and has your sense of humor and Seanna is the one that studies people just like you did. They both bring us so much joy and so many wonderful memories of you each day in our lives, they will grow to know you in their daily lives. James and Sarah have grown into beautiful children that you would be very proud off and are doing so well in everything. We all miss you every hour in every day but you are never far from our hearts and minds each day. They say it is a step each day to deal with grief and in the last week we have taken a very big step in this area all of us we are moving forward and are starting to enjoy life once again the weight off our shoulders has been great. Shine brightly over us and enjoy your time with the many other Angels above, I now know that you are free and happy once again.
We Love you forever Linda, Gordon, James, Sarah, David and Seanna xxxxxxxx
Dad, I am missing you more and more each day even though another day comes it is harder and harder as I wish I had done more.
I miss your voice and hugs and being able to talk to you about so many things, you understood. The kids are still finding it hard and talk about you everyday, we have special poppy dinners where you are with us and candles are burning brightly for you. We all love these nights as we can sit and talk about you and how we are feeling you are so close to us it is amazing.
I hope you love receiving the wonderful balloons that we send you and enjoy the flowers and cards, you are not gone just waiting for us somewhere until we can get to you.
Every day I look at Seanna and David and feel so sorry that they never had the chance to grow up with you that it was taken away but I will do what ever I have to so they know all about you and the wonderful person that you are, they will still grow up with you but in a different light it will be harder for them but they are strong like you are so it is achieveable for them.
I look back on the years and say thanks that the last few years, we grew so close together and that we got to share so much of our lives together that we both did not share with anyone else. This is so strong to my heart and I am glad that we could confine in each other - we understood each other and where we were both coming from, no one else did. I just wish we got to finish it together but I will do it for us both - it may take a lot of hard work and time but as you would say we will get there as long as you work at it and I promise I will.
You are my rock and inspiration to keep going at the moment and not a day goes by that I do not speak, look at your photo or feel your love.
I love you DAD and no one can ever take that from me no matter what.
Not a day goes by that we miss you, not a day goes by that we don't talk to you, you are our strength to keep going here on earth, we miss you deeply but you are still in our daily lives everyday and that is the best thing we can wish for at the moment.
I hope you and Caitlyn are getting along and that she is bringing you so much happiness up there, her little brother is due to arrive to her mummy and family any day and i know that they are so looking forward to him arriving, but at the same time are scared. Please dad be with them all at this time and send your love down to them.
You are the best dad a daughter can ever ask for and no one will ever measure up to you, it is never until death do us part as you may have gone physically from our lives but your spirit lives on within us forever and this we are so greatful for.
Dad I so much want to be able to curl up beside you now. Life is so very different and people don't understand that things can and won't be the same as they use to even people close to you.
There are so many things and places that I don't like going to now that you are not around they are so hard to visit as I had such a great time with you at these many wonderful places. I want to be able to keep these treasure things and places in my heart and mind for ever and will but I can't go back, and if I really have to it kills me.
People say that you need to move on but they don't realise that we all greive in different ways, and they need to respect this. I know that you would want me to still do these many things as they had and could still make me happy but that is not want i want to do.
They were many things that i wished you had done or thought you should of done but for some reason you did not want to even though i thought it would of been the best for you. I feel the same way now like you did, and need to do what is right for myself just like you did for your self and i know that you would understand, so i feel no guilt in doing it.
I wish people could understand this and respect it. There are many things that i feel that i can still do that make me happy and gives me a great feeling doing these like we use to, and these are want i want to remember now.
Not having you around physically any longer is really hard but I have started a journey with you into the spirit world over the last few months and this has been amazing and so have the people who have made this dream come true for me and i can never thank them enough for sharing their time with me.
I believe in so many different things now and are taking a whole new path into my life which many people will not understand and agree with but it makes me me and i am so happy when i have this connection in my life, it is a totally different world.
Life is so simple if people really want to make it simple and can be so enojoyable to sit back and actually be able to focus on this wonderful world we live in.
I love being in control of myself and my life and not letting other people tell me what i should and should not being doing with it, it is my life not theirs. I think if they are so worried about other peoples lives it means that they have no time for them self and that they are not really happy and enjoying life as they are always worried about what other people are doing with their own lives.
I thank the people that respect my feelings and the people that don't agree with me but are still friends and know that we all believe in different things no one is the same. The friends in our circle are so supportive day to day and are always there to turn to in need and these are the best friends a person can have.
I am so glad that you taught me dad to enojy your friends and still spend time with them even when other people think that they are not trully friends but something else. Friends are people that will always stick by you and talk about you openly not ones that talk about you behind your back and smile at you when needed.
You taught me some wonderful things in life that are so presious to me and now i plan to incorporate them into my life just like you did.
I love you dad and always will, you were an inspiration to me and everything you did every day every hour right up until the Angels called you home, you did it for a reason even if we didn't agree.
Love you forever until i can curl up into your arms again and continue on living.
A great man sharing his life now with Caitlyn xxx / Linda Read >>
A great man sharing his life now with Caitlyn xxx / Linda
Dad even though you are gone physically from our lives you are never a thought away mentally.
My wonderful children have so many presious memories of you, and such great times with you on many occassions. Children loved your fun ways and games that you played. But the most they loved is the love you gave them and your time.
Now you are with so many other Angels of all ages, please take all the little Angels into your arms and celebrate with them all the things you did with our children and I know that they will also be happy for life with you up there, until they get to be with their family and friends again.
There is one very special little Angel up there with you also who is celebrating her Angel day tommorrow - Caitlyn.
Caitlyn some how drew her family and ours together and it has been such a blessing to invite this wonderful family into our family, they are such special people to us, they have opened their hearts and lives to us and this means so much that we can share our thoughts, memories, lives and dreams with them.
Please take extra special care of Caitlyn for her mummy as I know Rachel is missing her so much and I can fully understand how she feels, but it helps to bring peace to me knowing that you too have meet up there and are now sharing your lives together until both families can meet again.
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Dad I so much want to be able to curl up beside you now. Life is so very different and people don't understand that things can and won't be the same as they use to even people close to you.
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